Sick Again, God Help Me

Well folks, I'm sick again. This time I think I have bronchitis. My chest hurts and feels heavy. And to top that off, I think I have a bladder infection. I haven't made it to the gym at all. But on the bright side, I haven't been eating much either. This is what I get for walking around in the rain on Saturday—and that's a long story that I won't get into.

Yesterday, I slept all day. I can't take being sick anymore. I should have bought stock in MedExpress.  I wonder if it is a publicly trade comp[any. I'll have to check that out. God knows I've given them enough money. They ought to be making a killing. 

Anyway, sorry I haven't been around. But I'm working on getting back into the whole "health thing." Wish me luck. I need it right now. 

Made It Again

Made it to the gym again today. Still an abbreviated workout, but a workout nonetheless.

Light news day otherwise.

All's Quiet for Now

I made it to the gym—even though I took the scenic route. I accidentally went the way I usually go to work, which adds at least another 10 minutes to the trip. But I got there. 

I'm still thinking about the personnel training sessions. And still working on the diet. Not much else to say about that.

I had the girls all weekend and both of them ended up being sick—one on Friday night and the other on Saturday night. I'm too old to be up all night with sick kids. It's taken me three days to recover. 

I hope I can continue going to the gym bright and early. Well, we'll see what happens tomorrow. 

There's No Need to Fear

OK. Now I'm supposed to tag five other bloggers. And, by the way, Vicki, thanks.

I Can't Sleep Because I'm Thinking about Exercise

I'm up late. I can't sleep. But I've got to relax. So I guess it's a hot bath soon.

I'm thinking of buying 12 personal training lessons--the more you buy the cheaper they are. Anyway, it should cost me around $540. I'm getting back to the gym next week. But I'm going to start out slow. I'll buy the personal training sessions the week after, and then I'll have two sessions a week for the next six weeks. I wish I could afford a personal trainer twice a week every week. But, alas, I cannot.

So that's what's keeping me awake. I'm thinking too much.

Being Mindful of Where I Need to Go

I'm trying to figure out how to get my motivation back to where it was 18 months ago. But I can't seem to work up the state of mind that it takes. That got me to wondering, what is the psychological mindset that it takes to get into the groove? What is that motivator? I'm sure it's different for everyone. But what was it that made me "ready" 18 months ago that I'm having trouble recapturing today?

For one thing, I was so fat I couldn't bend over to pick something up that had fallen on the floor. For another thing, I spent about a month mentally preparing myself for what would be a long and difficult journey. I watched FitTV even if I didn't workout. I looked for healthy recipes even if I didn't prepare them—yet. I read other blogs. But the whole time, I kept telling myself that on this particular date in the future, I would begin.

So that's the point I'm going to start at today. I'm not going to rush myself. I'm going to stop pressuring myself with internal talk like, "By next Friday I will be" how ever many pounds I've decided is a good number. I'm saying one month from today, I am going to begin again. Until then, I will be preparing. Not by eating everything in sight, but by becoming mindful of what it is that I need to do.

So my beginning date is June 5.

Play It Again

Once again, I'm starting over.