Making Decisions

It's been a while since I've been here. I've been doing a lot of thinking. I think I have decided not to do the Lap Band. I just keep having this nagging feeling that I have to try one more time on my own. And I keep having this nagging feeling that this is surgery I wouldn't do well with. I already have stomach problems, and after I went out to lunch with some friends yesterday, I was convinced that any kind of bariatric surgery would be a mistake. Not because they talked me out it. It was when my stomach suddenly started churning for no reason other than I had eaten something. Ever since i had the gallbladder surgery, I've had stomach issues. sometimes it comes on suddenly—like yesterday. Sometimes it builds up overtime. Anyway, you get the picture.

I'm winning!

OK, what am I going to do then? Get back into logging in to Sparkpeople.com for one. That'll be a start. And if I would just exercise, I'd be more than half way there. What I need is a workout partner. Someone I'm comfortable with that I can count on. When I did my absolute best was when I had workout partner. So how do I find someone? Advertise? Any suggestions? I checked the WV teams on Sparkpeople.com, but people don't seem to be consistent. I don't know where else to look. Also, I'd the person to be close to my age and preferably female—just for the sake of having more common interests. Men tend to try to win all the time. And I'm not in the mood for stroking egos. This is about me. Anyway, you get the picture here, too.

I'm also still trying to use therapy. I want to give that a fighting chance. Anyway, more when I figure out who I am.

I'm Getting Warmer

OK. I'm taking an iodine supplement that I bought from Wellness Resources. I've noticed that I actually have a normal temperature now—98.6 degrees when it's supposed to be. According to some researchers, normal is about 97.6 degrees in the morning when you first wake up and then it goes to 98.6 degrees later in the day. Since I was about 30 years old, I haven't had a normal temperature. It has always been around 97.4 degrees. And I was always freezing, despite supposedly being optimally treated with thyroid medication.

Other things I've noticed since beginning the iodine supplement: I don't retain as much fluid, leg cramps have lessened, feel lighter and able to walk farther, skin feels less dry, and the hair is growing back on my legs—that one I'm not that happy about. I do not feel like I've lost any weight, and, in fact, I haven't. I guess I still have to do that one on my own.

I'll keep you update on my latest guinea pig trial. As  for the vitamin D one, I'm still taking it. I have noticed less belly fat—in fact I lost an inch. No overall weight loss though. (No matter what, you have to stop overeating. lol)

Also, I have an appointment set up with a therapist for April 4. I'll let you know how that experiment works.

Lap Band—the jury is still out.

So, that's it for today. Sorry my posts have been so sparse. (And, admittedly, my blog reading.) But, I'm working to get myself back into the groove—again. So, I'll see you soon. 

Update to the Update: Lap Band Update and Other Stuff

Just a quick update this morning: I'm still on the fence with the lap band procedure. I'm weighing the pros and cons. It seems there are just as many success as horror stories. Used as tool, I think it could be very effective. For the record, I have never thought it would be magic. I know what it takes to lose weight. But thank you for all of your advice. I have read all of it, and am considering all of it.

This morning I told the kids we'd have broccoli for dinner. The girl loves it. The boy, well. I asked him why he didn't like it. He said, "My brain tells me I don't like it." I couldn't argue with that.

Life is OK at the moment. So that's it for now. Busy day ahead. I hope yours is a good one.

P.S. Tomorrow I have an appointment with a therapist to discuss compulsive overeating.