Making Decisions

It's been a while since I've been here. I've been doing a lot of thinking. I think I have decided not to do the Lap Band. I just keep having this nagging feeling that I have to try one more time on my own. And I keep having this nagging feeling that this is surgery I wouldn't do well with. I already have stomach problems, and after I went out to lunch with some friends yesterday, I was convinced that any kind of bariatric surgery would be a mistake. Not because they talked me out it. It was when my stomach suddenly started churning for no reason other than I had eaten something. Ever since i had the gallbladder surgery, I've had stomach issues. sometimes it comes on suddenly—like yesterday. Sometimes it builds up overtime. Anyway, you get the picture.

I'm winning!

OK, what am I going to do then? Get back into logging in to Sparkpeople.com for one. That'll be a start. And if I would just exercise, I'd be more than half way there. What I need is a workout partner. Someone I'm comfortable with that I can count on. When I did my absolute best was when I had workout partner. So how do I find someone? Advertise? Any suggestions? I checked the WV teams on Sparkpeople.com, but people don't seem to be consistent. I don't know where else to look. Also, I'd the person to be close to my age and preferably female—just for the sake of having more common interests. Men tend to try to win all the time. And I'm not in the mood for stroking egos. This is about me. Anyway, you get the picture here, too.

I'm also still trying to use therapy. I want to give that a fighting chance. Anyway, more when I figure out who I am.