What's in My Way?

Some days I wake up tired. This is one of those days. I did an hour on the treadmill this morning and then 20 minutes on the track. I thought it would be a good day to break things up a little. So I decided to take it little easier.

My emotions over the last day have been pretty much in check. Nothing overwhelming has happened. I've been able to control any emotional overeating. Today, however, I would like a large muffin. It just sounds good. I'm not sure if I want it because I saw a tray of them at the gym—why would they do that?—or because I'm craving something sugary. I think they are a trigger food for me—cakey sweetness. 

And as for emotional barriers—I'm not sure of who I am anymore. Does that make any sense? For the past 20+ years of my life, I have been a fat woman. If I lose weight, then who am I? I'm still trying to figure it out.

At work: I told her. It made me feel so much better. I am still behaving professionally. I think he finally has the message. 

At home: I'm getting some odds and ends cleared up. I got my front door fixed so I can at least use it. I'm having some lighting fixtures repaired and installed. 

It still keeps raining everyday.