Feelings, Nothing More Than Feelings

Yesterday was my first visit to the counselor. So how did it go? OK. My assignment is to get in touch with my feelings. She gave me an outline of typical feelings from low to intense. I figured out that I don't really get intense—at least not anymore. My feelings stay pretty much low level—they do get to a moderate stage sometimes—and they aren't necessarily the feelings I want.

One thing I noticed from the grid she gave me is that there are a lot more words to describe bad feelings than there are to describe good feelings. Whether that's true for the entire vocabulary, I couldn't say. It is true for this grid, however.  But I guess if I were happy all of the time, I wouldn't be in the place I am, would I?

Looking at the grid, my last truly intense feeling was "grief stricken." That is a feeling I don't want to go through again.

What do I feel right now? Hmmm. Kind of a low level discontent. Sort of irritated. Alone. And a little bit insecure. Am I craving anything right now? Potato chips. Will these potato chips fill a void other than my stomach? Probably not. Why do I crave salt when I'm depressed? That's something I will need to examine. I do believe I'm always kind of depressed.